In two weeks, I will be unemployed,
literally walang trabaho.
I've spent three years working in this company - staying up late for
work, getting stressed, and at the same time having fun.
I didn't intend to work for this company. I remember applying to the company
just across our office. Sa
kabilang office ako nagbigay nang resume. I even took the test,
was interviewed and already scheduled for a training. But I guess God
finds a way to let you be in a place where He wants you to be.
I had a rough start working with the company. No one talked to me and I was on
my own. Some of my co-workers didn't like me. Feeling
ko hindi ako tatagal.
I was just an ordinary employee when my boss decided to give me a position.
Though I had no idea what to do, I agreed. "Sige
na, kahit hindi ko kaya. Pang-resume din yan."
Few months passed and my work started to pile up. Masakit sa anit! Totoo nga ang sabi
ni Uncle Ben sa Spiderman, "with great power. comes great
responsibility". Not just great responsibilities pero may kasama ring sleepless nights, endless
overtime, erratic schedules and more.
Minsan,
kahit sa panaginip ko kausap ko ang boss ko. May meeting daw kami.
I dreaded Sundays too. I hated the
fact that I’ll be at work the next day. Every Monday, I pray that it’ll be
Friday the next day.
Palagi akong
pagod. Mag-lo-log-in pa lang ako
sa aming makalumang bundy clock, pagod na ako. Kalbaryo na sa akin ang maghintay nang FX pauwi dahil sa sobrang pagod.
I would rather sleep the whole weekend than go out. Because I am tired. Really
tired.
But there
are so many things I am thankful for.
I have
learned to be patient - a characteristic that I lack especially kapag mahaba ang pila sa banko, sa
cashier at sa CR sa Megamall.
I have learned how to listen to people and how to be sensitive to their
feelings. I used to be one-sided with my opinions but working in this company
made me realize the importance of listening and being sensitive.
I have learned that sometimes, you have to respect the people in authority kahit feeling mo mali sila at tama
ka. They may be wrong but kahit
paikot-ikotin ang mundo, boss mo pa rin sila.
I have learned how to negotiate. Minsan,
kelangan talaga makipag-compromise. Eto pala yung palagi kong naririnig sa TV
na 'let's meet
half-way'.
I have learned how to conceal my feelings in front of other people. Being
transparent doesn't always work. There are times that you have to set aside
your feelings in order for you to think properly and do things correctly. Kahit bad trip ako, I have to
smile because I want others to know that I am there for them. Kahit pagod ako, I have to help
because I might be the only person who could help them. Kahit malungkot ako, I have
stay positive so that everybody stays positive.
I have to learned how to multitask. Yung
kumain nang dinner habang may paper
work na tinatapos. Yung magmake-up habang sumasagot
nang messages.
I have also learned to set aside the things that I want to do in exchange for
more important things in life. Yung
tipong isusubo mo na ang iyong dinner pero ibaba mo na lang ang kutsara dahil
tinatawag ka nang boss mo sa office.
I have learned so many things.
Maliban sa
sweldo na kinikita ko, one of the things that made me stay was that I have met new
friends. I started out working without someone to talk to during my breaktime. Okay lang sa akin 'yon.
Besides, I am working because I need to earn, bonus
na lang if I make friends. Pero I am so blessed to have crossed paths
with people that I consider as friends, hindi lang as officemates.
I also enjoy the working with most of the people in our office.
Unfortunately, in two weeks' time, I'll be leaving this company. I submitted my
resignation last March. Only a few people know about it.
How do geese know when to fly to the sun? Who tells them the seasons? How do
we, humans know when it is time to move on? As with the migrant birds, so
surely with us, there is a voice within if we only know how to listen to it,
that tells us certainly when to go forth into the unknown - Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
Eto ngayon ang peg ko.
Sometimes, there’s something inside
that tells you that it’s enough. Hindi ko
alam kung bakit pero I have this feeling that I have to move on.
I have to move on because I have to
consider my husband now that I am married.
I have to move on because I have to
take a break from all the stress.
I have to move on because there’s a
voice inside me that tells me to do so.
Now that I have few days left to
stay, why do I feel sad? Takot ako
mawalan nang trabaho? Pwede. Mabigat sa loob kong iwan ang mga taong naging
kaibigan mo sa kumpanya? Oo naman. Nalulungkot ako na iwan ang kinasanayan kong
gawin araw araw? Oo.
I thought it will be easy for me to
leave pero hindi pala.
Looking at the brighter side, I
think leaving may be the best thing to do at the moment.
I don’t know what I will do on my
first Monday na wala akong pasok. I
have never been unemployed even for a single day from the time I’ve started
working. I guess I will clean the house or watch or sleep. But for the first time, I will be having a stress-free Monday which I think all of us deserve.